Knowing when to fold ’em

I just want to say one thing off the bat: I am horrible at saying goodbye. So horrible, in fact, that I mostly just don’t do them–I ghost, I avoid, I say I’m not saying goodbye yet…then just let the clock tick down until the opportunity has passed. I write a note instead of showing up in person. I just deny and figure never say never–what might feel like a goodbye may well not actually be goodbye so why waste emotion/breath on something you may not have needed to do in the grand scheme of things. Or I just delay the inevitable, not wanting to close a door, especially if that door led to something or someone safe, familiar or even loved.

Which is why it’s taken me like three years to realize that it’s time…probably long past time…to say goodbye to Mizz Information. Just typing these words has me itching to backspace over them; to save this post back into draft mode, where it’s been languishing for I forget how long. It’s like an angsty breakup with nobody; an ending that literally nobody but me even gives a shit about–and 99% of me is so ready to just wrap it up and be done with the low-key ever-present guilt that is an all-but-abandoned blog.

I’ve wondered what I’d say when the time finally came to write the last of almost 600 posts I’ve written here over a decade and a half (almost). 14 years is almost the longest I’ve done anything in my life. Ok, except for be married–twice–each for 14 years (15 years with Patrick this year!) and parent my kids. This blog essentially chronicles an entire era of my life–what started as an effort to practice writing about business topics in hopes of making a go as a freelance writer ended up leading to a new career, a bunch of new friends, opportunities I’d never even considered as possibilities for myself and a weird memoir of sorts in the bargain. It’s earned me the reputation among some as “crazy” and “negative”, as well as I’m sure as navel-gazing and attention-seeking–but also as brave and confident and outspoken. So–I’ll take that as a glass more than half full.

I could go on and on with this memory lane for one, but I’ll spare us all–it’s not like I’m planning on nuking the archives right away or anything. And I still plan on blogging over at my fancy new site Chic n’ Geek (or at least continuing to obsessively fiddle with the design) and possibly trying out a newsletter if I can ever manage to figure out what I’m planning to do next professionally (please hire me someone! Self-employment + COVID isolation is just too isolating).

So see you on the flip side and thank you for indulging my ranting and oversharing these past 14 years!